This is the blog of Kristopher Hoffman, an autistic film maker in
Hi - this whole series has been a great help to me, it is clear sighted and REAL! only got diagnosed a couple of months ago, at first I thought 'ok, this is not too bad, I can deal with it, just a minor change in perception, right?' - as I type this I cannot believe I thought that, at first! It is a disease, and as I look back at the devastation it has caused in my life, while I struggled to understand, spent a fortune on therapy, failed constantly to get a grasp on life, feelings, relationships,let my own children down, yes, I know it.
I appreciate the compliment. It is good to see that my series is serving its purpose... to help people... I know it is rough, but believe me when I say this... it gets better.
I am the parent of an Aspie, and I try very hard to see the world from her perspective. If I believe that "I'm OK - just wired differently" (self-esteem view), and almost everybody else seems to be following an invisible blueprint for living that I have never seen, but I'm OK... So I want to stop the merry-go-round until somebody shows me the blueprint, but "I'm just like everybody else, just see things a little differently", it would seem this would cause cognitive dissonance. I want to explode.
For those that do believe that there is nothing wrong... truly believe it... there is no dissonance... they will fight, tooth and nail for this stance... and will believe it... We will tell everyone around us that they are ignorant and too stupid to see it... I know... because I was one of those... with self awareness comes cognitive dissonance... it is something we must overcome